recent days which I have been are so cruel. I need choice. To be honest , I need courage. My mom said if I do not have the ability to learn and exist in MSU, if I could not get the grades upon to 70, if I stay in level for 1 year and no dateline, then I  should consider the College in lower rank. Depending on my background, MSU is a dissert to me.  She worried cause she do not want me to spend 4 years like what I spend in the past three years. She is scared. I know that raise a child is like invesment and several are do not have profit. It is really hard to feel freedom and turly happiness. I have been a long time that do not feel the sweet with exciting. The moment I feeled was hapened when the whold family stay together though they both have different life and it is really easy to harm each other. Yes, the fact which we choosed before. We forget what we promised and the life chang in abnormally. I wonder that does the moment deserve to pay more yelling, upset and cramble, all the craps are easy to breakthrough the basic line of the mental.