the 2nd one

 

thanks for the friends who ever paid visit to my space and their encouragement. i'm almost overwhelmed that many people do care for others even online, even that virtual. thanks  again and thank a lot.

come to this point i've just got a little confused and don't know how and what on earth i can write on this page.  sometimes people have too much in store in hearts but they just can't split them out , they'd rather keep in secrets. it's rather normal for them to do this.

weird as it gets lately. i'm a male, i love girls, but i just couldn't extricate myself from that past and gone affair anymore.

silly it is, i gradually found out i just can't fall in love again, and what's more serious is, i mostly hate those beautiful and cuty ones i ever saw. the nicer those lovers behave, the more animosity i would store for that girl i loved. i'm just not able to understand what's the point when you gave out everything you own to a person and finally that person cruelly stabbed  on your heart again and again.

now i seem to grow up, i've understood a lot more, sometimes something doesn't belong to you would slip away and you can't anything about it , that't it.  those are a pile of sand in your hand, the tighter you hold , the faster they  drain off.

i'm grateful that i am not a psychotic yet, i'm clearer than i was . i lost a girl i shouldn't lean on, but i regain a whole new world. thank goddness.