I met many friends in this spring festival and I learned a lot from them. As I will find my own job half a year later, I am very anxious now. I don't know what job to choose and what kind of companies I should enter into.

    I think I signifies one kind of people. We want to make our lives colorful  and significant. However, we lack the bravery to pursuit our goals and the endurance to suffer from failure. There are always someone who will tell you that what you are doing now are meaningless, and we may give up what we are doing then. We fear we may fail doing what we are doing now and verify what others have said. So we never dare to speak out our minds and let others know them. We know we should modify our actions but we just can't. Just because I have this kind of mind, I don't dare to pursuit my future and am very confused. 

    I am a graduate student, and I am already 26 years old now. I will be 27 years old when I graduate from school. I want to go to England to get a master degree to solve my English language problem. It just needs one year but I will not be the year's graduate and can't get the job through the campus recruitment when I come back. And this is why my parents don't agree with it. But I really want to go out to see the outside world and learn my English well. However, I know my parent want me to find a good job when I am the year's graduate, then I only have to go out with my own efforts when I have the ability to afford myself. What I am really worried about is if I have the mind and bravery to go out when I am older, because I may consider all kinds of difficulties then. I am a person who really don't what to change the environment often, and fear the strange environment from the bottom of my hearts. What I really need is a good mind and pursuit what I really want. 

    Actually speaking, I have never faced important choice and failure before, because I have always been a good-study students. However, our life need choice and study really may be the most easier thing in the world. I really don't know if I am fit for the society. I have communicated with three friends in this spring festival. They all have worked in other province and wanted to go back, and they told me not to work outside. I have stayed in Shandong province for almost 26 years and I want to go outside to experience different life, but my friends told me that life is the same in China and I will be regretful if I go out. 

    When I am still in campus, I may have fancy and hope of the society. However, if I really enter into the society, I know life will be realistic and I will take serious consideration of my every step. Life is full of uncertainty and we just need to adapt to it and face it with open mind.