I have news for you:
You are not perfect.
You are not all-powerful.
Selft-change is hard,so it's not terribly surprising that you didn't get it right the first try.
So,stop feeling so bad.
It's like when someone gets thrown from a horse.
What do the horse-types say?
You are supposed to get up,brush the dust off, and get back on that horse!
That what you need to do right now.