For my first l♡ve letter

This is a long story. You must be patient with it. ^^

I am a shy boy who isn’t good at expressing my emotion when I was young. So the number of girls I fall in love with secretly is quite a few.

The first time I know her name is in an election conference of student’s union in the first year at a junior high school, even though we go to the same primary school. Her name was written by chalk in the blackboard. I still insist now, that is the most beautiful name I have ever seen in my entire life. As the time passing by, we didn’t have any contacts until the third year.

Oh~ that is a unforgettable and amazing summer afternoon. When I was chatting with other students in the classroom, one of my friend was coming in and saying to me “I have to handle another business, could you replace me to be on duty with ZYD (for personal secret, only show its abbreviation)” After I said “Yes, sure.” as usual , I realized that is the name! Then I went out the classroom, saw a little girl standing in the corridor with her liquid eyes. Oh~ Jesus, those are such sincere and watery eyes. And then we talked to each other, we smiled to each other when we were on duty. Wow, that is really wonderful. I think both of us had a feeling that we have been friends for a long time. The impression she left to me at that 15 minutes continue on my mind, so that often. It is just like a sort of comfortable, gentle, sweet and pure feeling. After than I began to notice any pieces of messages of her drop by drop. She is the monitor of class five. She lived in the revenue departmentalism, from which has a long distance to school. And then one day I found that she and I came home in the same way!! Sometimes she would stand out of the school gate, waiting for someone else to come home together. And every times I passing by the side of her just passed by, had no enough courage to even talk to her. Oh~ I was such a poltroon. Soon after Christmas day is coming, I decided to do something. And in view of her name, I bought a cute candle for her. But I just asked one of her best friends in my class to give it to her without saying a word or writing a note. Oh~ I was a big idiot. I had no idea that how large the difficult to let me speak out loudly my emotion. And then after a few days, I was walking in the way home after self-study at night, all of a sudden, there is someone poking my shoulder. Then I look back and found, guess what, that is her! She said that “Hi! Feng sheng.” I totally lost my head. And, and, and what am I gonna say, what am I gonna say, what am I gonna say, after one second’s thinking, I said that “Hi, the Engligh test tonight is weird, huh?!”~oh~My God~ you are such a big fool!!!! Pal. Because my home is just nearby the school,(jesus~I have really hated that since ever) ,after a few word we said good bye to each other. And then there is a song ringing out in my heart. It came from Jolin, ”That is love”~Oh~ what a wonderful night!!!!

After that there are only two things in my memory at the rest of the third year in senior high school. First, I began to try to find out the time she pass by my home on her way to school, and I also go to school at that right point, pretended to be a encounter(偶遇).~~hehe~ how adorable I was. But I didn’t do well. It only worked a few times. Secondly, it was work hark. I dreamed of go to the same important junior high school with her. And my name began to climb up in the ranking list of whole grade. top 50, top 20, top 10, top 5.Finally, I came in fifth in my town. But she didn’t got it. What a theatrical result.

A year went by, I can’t help myself sending a letter to her ultimately, to tell her my emotion to her. I still can remember some funny sentences in it(you know, a man always think that what he has written in the past is stupid) But it is full of my true and pure emotion. Soon after her friend called me and said “she asks you to give her a call.” But I didn’t do it finally.~~now~~I think about the reason. Maybe I had no courage to talk to her, may be I didn’t want a relationship, just told her how I felt. Maybe the love is just the feeling of love at that time, didn’t need a title like boyfriend or girlfriend. I knew this may disturb her deeply and I felt very very sorry about that. I have no right to beg a pardon, but just give my best wish to her.

That is the end

Thank you for your attention.^^（Pardon my poor English~）