Nov,4th,2012 Coudy.
I cant consentrate in working in the relately months, not sleep well, everyday moving like a body without a soul. These symptoms had shown long time ago, and now it become serious. I think I have found the one i love, that can make you upset when not seeing her, and can make you full when just glacing a view of her back. I cant control myself and so confused at words that make me perform so nervous when talking to her,maybe she can feel it . But im not willing it oppositely increase our distance. When the time I saw her,shes talking to somebody with a sweet and happy smile in phone, my heart broke, but I try hard to persuade to think I still have chances ,since the opponent just her boyfriend. But in fact,I was so sad even want to cry silently. But in fact, its just the unrequited love, I really want to ask the god why every girl I love finally cant be my lover , can you give my chance.Even so, I walked by her intentionally everyday after lunch just have a greeting with, even just to look at her smile thats enough.There's a wall in front of me that its hard to reach. I'm gona cracy, I cant help. and nobody can help.