I haven't been here for a long time. I am graduating soon, this is a job hunting season, endless written examinations and interviews, busy and tire, this course is hard, and this is also a course of finding myself, what I truly want, what should I do, and what can I do. Sometimes I found the future is so clear and sometimes it is hazy. Sometimes refusing and sometimes being refused, maybe the most suitable one merely live in people's mind, no matter job or lover. I hate this unstable situation and at the same time I also enjoy the pleasant sensation of "hunting". I am a restless man, but have to find a stable place under the reality, maybe this is where the contradiction lies in.