how can i discribe the day ? a nice day or a gloomy ?but now i am only crying forgetting the happiness we share in th e morning .sorry it's to say yesterday ,as it's 0:53 now.

    one's mood changed all the time ,maybe laughing 10 mins ago ,now crying and forget where she is ,or whoelse watching at her.so am i.while i was crying ,there is nothing in my head but the very sad time.i even don't know what make me so sad .and i think i want to get a casual lack of concern from my boyfriend.i think i did everything well the last day, we went out to the park ,walking while talking with eachother ,while i was having the hair cut ,he was waiting for me ,that make me feel sorry ,as i know almost boy don't like that.what a happy time !

   after the lunch,i washed so many clothes ,i feel happy ,though it made me so tired.then we played card paper with the brother and his wife .it seems the day have gone ,when i come back from the bathing he forgot me too long time and take time on the chatting with his sister and his brother's.that made me so sad.what did he take me ,the air? so i remmember my family ,my mother ,i want to go home right now .but i don't know how to tell them ,i don't want them to be worried about me ,i am so lonely .i don't know whoelse i can chat with that time ........

    i think maybe i cann't go in to his world ,and he also cann't get my feelings.then how can we live together the last life?as i lived in his hometown ,with the strong lonely feelings.i don't want to tell it to my good friends ,i just like sharing the happiness with them ,but what to do at that time?just run with tears in the night? while every one sleeping soundly ?hay ,the bad guy ,will you hear me ?why don't you give me more attention ? you know you are all for me in this city ,and now what should i do ?