When I said a psychiatrist is needed for me and I was thinking that I didn’t wrote anything about others and at that moment I am not a social animal at all. And that is a fatal problem and I don’t even want to fix it when I realize it.

Frankly speaking, the interaction between me and anyone else has not lost, yet. Sometimes I thought they already wrote the part we shared together in their blog, so…

On the train I tried to make some little figure using lead, but it turned out to be very ugly and I don’t want to look at it. These days I’ve been think that maybe I always overestimate my ability and always ignore the power of practice. I’ve been thinking about do it good for one time and get a failure at last. For one thing, I am not a fucking genius and merely a usual jerk and for another, I don’t even use full jerk power.