Writing blog is a casual thing. O(∩_∩)O

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     I have to finish the article with this title determined by my boss in the training camp. It is not interesting at all but I have to do it. Just as my boss said, we are too young to revolt or to question authorities and what we can do now is to obey. However, as I have mentioned before, I am not sensitive enough to write an elegant essay out. You know if you have not experienced something, it will be hard for you to have some profound thoughts. The other reason that I think it hard is that I am confused about the definition of happiness. I, who am twenty three years old, who have spent sixteen years in school and who will spend another three year in the university, have not even think about seriously what is the happiness I want to pursue.

     That does not mean I do not have a dream. My dream is to be a professional translator, but I am not sure whether I will be happy after my realization of dreams.

     I remember that in the text book in our middle school, it is defined clearly that “dream (理想)is what you want to do in the future. It can be classified into different types, such as occupational dream, family dream and so on…” Dream equals to plans to the future. They are so concrete while happiness, which is subtle, is quite difficult to give such a clear definition and classification, and the standard of happiness is various according to different personalities, life experiences, living places even ages. So what is my happiness?

     I must confess that I have confounded the two concepts unconsciously during my growing up. I think I am happy now coz I am alive and not suffering mentally. However, I do not think I can stop struggling and my motivation is not to pursue happiness, but to fulfill my obligations to my parents and to satisfy my desire both in material and spirit aspects actually. I want to give my parents good living conditions and best treatment during their sickness which needs money as we all know. I also want to prove that I can be a good translator which can meanwhile provide me money to support me and parents. Being with my parents has been happiness, but I still have to earn money, to some extent, to guard my happiness. You see, I have not the deep thinking about pursing happiness although I know clearly we can not wait for happiness, because I am in happiness now and do not have the feeling of misery for losing happiness. So the title sounds vain to me.

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It seems that I have been off the point. Well. Sorry… I feel terrible for catching serious cold now…(coughing)…poor Lee Emily…