I was wondering what I really want these days. Something about my future and my interests. Words seems always easy but the reality not. I know my hesitation and can do nothing about it. I hate myself for such thinking! I want it, I wanna try, and however, something always pulls me back.

I don't know why. Once I did not know what I really want, now I have made everything clear to my heart. Why I still have the feeling about hesitation??? What’s it on earth?

Yeah. I’m afraid. I’m afraid of lose!

You cannot have your cake and eat it too. It is the time for me to give up something which seems kind but untrue for me. Since I have denied her, why not say no to others?! I still remember the words – Follow your heart and make the best of my own!

In addition, they both support me. I should never lose confidence and keep on trying. The way we choose has been destined to be different, so let us go different for the same purpose. Talk with my heart and I know what I really want –that’s the most important!