I took part in the our campus-tryout for the annual "CCTV cup" speech competition this morning. I felt Ok, cos' I've got the words pronounced well and the script organized coherently and expressed fluently. But I wasn't remarked enough to enter the second run.

I am a junior, majoring in English, approved and encouraged million times by those excellent seniors who have won a lot of national speech prizes. I feel sorry, ashamed and even guilty for them. I don't want to disappoint the people around supporting me.

But I've wasted too many chances!

I've made too little progress in speech delivering!

Am I up to say these words "I like speech, but speech doesn't like me"?

I always feel deserted and betrayed by the "honorable judges", but have I realised the object reason behind the score?

If I've realised there must be a reason, it's the fault of myself, have I figured out what it is?

Once I've figured it out in a certain way, how can I make up for it then?

WHAT? WHY? HOW?

I'm really depressed today. A friend adviced me to ask the guiding teacher some tips, but I've disappointed him. I dare not. How dare I?

Friends, waht can I do, what should I do?