2008-2-2

It has been four days since last time I posted my English diary. In these days, I've done a lot of things and thinking. Seeing all these replies to my previous pieces of diary made me feel like that I had gotten back my confidence again. With all this confidence, I thought I could achieve a lot of things such as to become some expert in English. I had better not to imagine something unrealistic...

After the fantasy, I felt like that I should need some leisure. Then I began to play some video games. Playing these games almost took a whole day. Sometimes, I just couldn't resist the attraction of these games.

This seemed a bit contradictory because I only like those games which could impress me very much and I dislike uninteresting ones. Besides video games, I also like books and regular sports. I begin to take some physical exercises at 9 pm evey evening and I jog a couple times each week. Although I have not read a lot of books, I like foreign literature, Greek mythology, fiction and regular novels. I could memorize what I have read very well. Currently, my favorite is a book about realism, Sense and Sensibility (June Austen). This book is very impressive as I have completed the second volume.

However, I don't know why I can't focus on studying anything seriously. I have the feel that I am like a character in the novel who couldn't do whatever he wants to because he is so controlled by the author. I don't have anything serious to do and if I continue to live like that, my future would not be a bright one.

I have to settle down a bit and try to learn how to arrange and schedule everything. I have to learn how to mix leisure, study and drawing together nicely and I have to take care of myself. I must keep my diary going in English. I must write my diary with my own words and face the real self, who is not so good at English.