English starts becoming a part in my life. I can feel empty when I didn’t read it in the morning. And, the fear for slipping push me to study it for almost six hours one day. A favorite, however, using English watching movies and materials about history can almost become my rota.

I remember the experience to meet at the toastmasters club in People Square on Tuesday. When I said I am a recent graduate from Shanghai Theatre Academy and I failed to get a job. Someone, who suddenly stood up and encouraged me “Nothing could worry you in the youthful age. The first step is always difficult.” Her reaction shocked me, I wasn’t ready to receive such a strong encouragement. After party, I realized I was still with pessimistic attitude when I hold this opinion. Although, I never accepted that I am a pessimist.

Two days later, I planed a work that is not very clear, but it need great patience to do it, keep resolution from distracting and worrying about some complicated thing too much.