I would like to have a girl, whom I will name Pingta. Cause this name endows me with hope of new life.

I had ever tried to kill myself since I did numerous wrongdoings, fortunately I failed to die, cause the gun made a joke on me. And that was why I stay alive to accompany you. You know what I felt about you? Actually nothing. Cause I was just paid to protect you, I’m not a communitive guy who can be your lovely partner. I can see you have sweet smile and innocent eyes, and l love them though. But that doesn’t make any difference. I just can not erase my sadness and gloom, so mean enough that I can not even give a gentle smile.

Hey, girl. I know you some kind of hate me. But you did try to talk to me and make me feel good. You follow each of my direction, sometimes a little ill temper though. At least I felt you are not tired of me and I didn’t ask why.

It seems most beautiful stories will end with tragedy. And we are destined to break up at halfway. I already knew this since that day you were kidnapped by those bad guys. And I got hurt physically, very near to the hell. 

I recovered days later, and learnt you had gone forever… And I understood they took your life away. Well, I think we would never seen each other.

Till the day I went back to your house to pick up my stuffs, I happened to read your diary, which one of them wrote that I hope you love me, you are my first pet, I love you.

I just could not think of anything. But there’s only one thing I can assure is that I will do whatever I can to execute my loyalty, simply for your pieces of words in diary. 

Then I started my revenge for you. All of them felt sorry for kidnapping you, cause most of them died out of regrets. Finally I found you were still alive. And they required my death to exchange your life. And I accepted.

The happiest moment I had was that you rushed out from them and hopped into my arms. However, I could nearly held you tight. Girl, I saw you smiled to me again. But I had to say I will come back to you soon, go find your mom, she’s waiting for you right there. And you went away from me again...

When I was escorted into their car, I knew I could not stand the shot wound in my body. I had no strength, eyes idle to see the black-white passingby views outside car window. And  I lost my last breath with your gift in my hand (a buddha necklace which represents safety and harmony)  and then made a wish before my eyes closed. 

I wanna see you grow up with full of my love. And what makes me happy is that you are happy with me.

I wanna walk you everywhere you want, protect you and teach you everything that I am with. I can teach you swim, as long as you like it. You can talk about my trifles that interest you most, and I won’t behave weary any more.

And I want you know that I love you too.