Yesterday I attended h’s wedding. She is one of my colleagues and we came to the same place to work in the same year. Looking at her standing on the stage with her soul mate, I was really happy for her. While marriage is a hot topic for us, especially like me and some friends who are suitable for it in our parents’ eyes. As we know, thinking is one thing, while the fact is another thing. Coming back home, one of friends said to me that it’s time for you to consider it and some of them are getting married, blablabla…. It was not that I didn’t want to hear that, but I found that I was really afraid of hearing that, even though I knew them and my parents are concerned about me.

At the same time, I was aware that those remarks sometime had a bad influence on my mind and I felt the pressure they gave me. I didn’t know if I was really upset with myself. All in all, I didn’t sleep well.

What I do was to calm down and to do something I need to do. Trying to keep myself at peace and listening to my heart, I didn’t want to worry about my future. The most important for me is the present that is needed to be captured and enjoying, right? If I couldn’t hold the present, there would be no future for me. I believe I will be proud of what I did and walk on my own road with my chin up high.