i do not what will happen in the future.but now,i really live a bad life,every thing in my world are black.i can not do anything which even is very easy to normal people.

    i do not know when i will break through the life which i even can not havea breath in it.god is always playing tricks on me.i am really very sad.most of my friends may look down on me if i still live in this style.

    i do not know who can believe in me during the time when i even can not believe in myself.maybe all the things is at the command of god,even though i do not think so once upon a time.

    i do not know who can help me when i can not help myself.may be only me.