I don’t know what to say. Sitting here facing the window, the strong autumn wind blows on me now and then, hidden inside it the coldness, sharpness and cruelty of the winter.

I comfort myself: this isn’t a time of war. Yeah, instead, it seems like a time of harmonious. However, secretly we are facing a time of adversity. People don’t have sense of security and reliability. We have everything to depend on; yet we have nothing to depend on. All the dependable things are not as dependable as they seem to be: family, spouses, friends, will they back you up all the time. Perhaps it’s better to ask ourselves:“ will we back up them all the time？”

“Hardly yes.”

Parents may grow old and die, when they become completely reliable on you, will you be able to care for them with as much fondness, love and care as they towards you when you are young. Working far away from home, will you be able to take care of them timely, whole-heartedly besides them?

Will you support your kids if they go against your wish to marry someone regardless of your objection?

Will you change your mind when you find someone more adorable and then desert your old love?

I thought before that today’s society must be more tolerable and open-minded, but I guess I am wrong. Having the sign of virgin is supposed to protect females, not as the testimony of being loyal to love or not? But for the society, it’ll be too much to have sex before get married. It would be disgraceful, humiliated and losing face. I have little confidence on people's tolerance.    

Being a human being searching for perfection and holding high expectation toward the world will always be disappointed by the flaws of it. Not to say in the late summer, early autumn, approaching winter, chilling wind...

Forget it.